God’s Not Done with Me Yet: When Faith-Filled People Battle Depression

It all started with a blog entry. I love Christ, why am I still depressed? started a conversation with a number of people – most especially Christians. Apparently, this topic doesn’t receive much recognition from the Church. People shy away from discussing mental health issues because, supposedly, it presents a weak kind of faith. I entertained […]

Single, Faithful, and Not Waiting

If you were to tell my younger self that at 24, I would still be single with no manliligaw nor a prospect whatsoever, I’d think you’re crazy. At 19, I thought I was *gasp* ready for a relationship. How difficult would it be? (At 15, I had a manliligaw who called me every day on our red telephone. […]

When God Feels like An Afterthought

There will be a distinct time in your life when you finally come to understand who God is and more importantly, how He loves you. This does not necessarily mean that you will go through life sure of all things. The rock that you stand from may be firm and unshakeable but there will be […]

When Your Misery Becomes Your Ministry

I struggled with depression early on in my life. There were no wild moments, which caused this relentless, even crippling awareness of life and its breadth. I come from a good, nurturing family, an established high school yet time and time again, I found myself undeniably sad. On good days, I was simply brooding yet […]

She Makes Him Known

Today, I give you She Makes Him Known, a product of months of labor and years of unquestionable growth. When I created my first blog seven years ago – a month before I started university – it was a safe place for me to document my process of healing. I was a young girl completely lost […]

A Prayer

You are restless, exhausted, yet hopeful. For a future that blossoms with infinite possibilities. It may be too tiresome, but you were made to dream. Every aching atom in your fragile body cries out for a promise that is solely yours. Please forgive yourself. There are countless of days when you spend too much time […]

Forgive me, I am only human.

Forgive me, for bearing all my heart’s scars from lost wars, for romanticizing pain until it envelops me, making me lose sight of Your bloodied hands, Your tattered ribs, while You gasp for oxygen, for light, and for Purpose. Forgive me, for taking love that isn’t mine to keep, reaching out for hands to hold […]

God’s will is whatever.

God’s will is whatever. Every time I am crippled with fear and anxiety, I am filled with peace knowing this is the effervescent truth. For years, I have troubled myself believing that my choices are either in accordance to His will or they are not. That is very paralyzing. How do you move knowing that […]

Please don’t give me love

Please don’t give me love when the kind of love I desire is something I want to possess out of fear – fear that nothing better will come, fear that it will end up just like the others I have received, and fear that I deserve to “settle.“ Please remind me that the kind of […]