(I Was) a Slave to My Beauty Products

in at January 11, 2019

I’ve resolved not to create a Best of 2018 series; please bear with me, and allow me to explain my “plight”. I’ve been doing a lot of introspection, and it was only proper to let this be out in the open.

2018, literally, changed me (and my spending habits). Here I was, this beauty enthusiast, this #SkinCare and #MakeUp obsessed junkie who hid her mail and recent drugstore buys because I was both thrilled yet ashamed of another thoughtless purchase. 

I had absolutely no control. I constantly made excuses. These material things filled this insatiable thirst within me. I was a “beauty blogger” and people expected me to review the latest releases. I no longer felt like creating *real* memories because it would disrupt my Instagram feed with dreamy product shots – I digress. I always had the next pay check to look forward to…until I no longer knew when my next pay check was coming. (Eh, freelance…there are good days, and there are days when I am drowning and have to pull myself out of a black hole.)

One day, I realized that there were no jobs coming. (There was a full month when I had no bookings.) And I looked over my vanity, and these material things meant nothing to me. At the end of the day, how much of this did I really need? At some point, I stopped watching Youtube videos because I couldn’t reconcile how somebody could just throw out a $250 luxury foundation while I was trying my best to make ends meet and get through a week without having another anxiety attack over my next booking. 

From that day, I unsubscribed from Sephora, BeautyMNL, et al. I haven’t shopped online since August. I only go to Watsons to purchase toiletries.  Just the other day, I spent 30 minutes in Althea Korea to restock my eye cream and essence (for my acne scars, ha) only to exit. So much has changed, and I’m so grateful for this growth.

One of the reasons why I stopped writing about products for almost 3 months is this newfound value for money. At the end of the day, that’s all these products really are, things. 

Still, I do *absolutely* love make-up and skin care. Despite this lengthy declaration, I actually have a lot of beauty content lined up for the upcoming weeks. All I’m saying is, I invite you to review your relationship with these products and see if there are more worthy things and opportunities you’re sacrificing for them. Please don’t be a slave to your products.

Elisa Aquino

Elisa Aquino is a portrait photographer, life(style) writer, passion blogger, and beauty rookie from Manila, Philippines. This platform exists to document her daily musings and to showcase the life-changing power of grace to transform women from ashes to beauty.